You may be (most likely are) a SHEEP. Oh dear! what’s this, you say? Well, I’ve had so much to say, and so little blogging has been going on, on my part… But I just could NOT let this one go. Yesterda, I was looking down from the balcony outside of photography class, and I notice 2 girls walking together, and one unknown girl walking in the opposite direction. Everything seemed normal, but wait… all three of them had the same clothes on, just with slight, minor alterations. I don’t want to get into too much detail, but the two of them walking together, had the exact same type of clothing, in the exact same colours. “Spot the differences!” came into play, as I stared at them, I noticed one had a slight fade on the upper front part of her jeans, and the other had darker thin stripes on her shirt. That was it. The third was actually wearing different toned jeans, but the shape of them was identical.

How did this even happen? the one that was walking in the opposite direction clearly didn’t even know the other two. Coincidence? Not at all, I started looking around all day after that, and they weren’t the only ones. So, how did this actually happen? Simple, their minds, subconsciously picked out the coolkids from the loserkids and  identified their clothing pattern. All of a sudden, this clothing was “cool” to them, they see this stuff in stores, they see it on the street, they see it on TV, it’s COOL. They want to wear it.

Not that bad right? WRONG. It also happens with music, Britney Spears; talanted musician right? No, she doesn’t even write her own music, infact how many pop stars write their own music?

Pop = POPULAR. Popular = People copying other people.

Which leads me onto another subject. Pop art. POP ART. Art, that is popular. How does this even happen? Someone makes up a new style of artwork and BAM, everyone (YES EVERYONE) who can download photoshop, click on a couple of filters and call themselves a “Designer” reproduces rapes it until it’s a bloody pulp of shame?  YES. EXACTLY.

Andy Warhol! That guy! He made a piece of artwork decades ago, and all of a sudden OMG WOW PHOTOSHAP everyone’s doing it. Actually, hold on for a second, I know this will lead me onto something else, but… There’s no need for photoshop now, there’s actually a mac app called “Photobooth” that does everything for you. That’s right, an app that inspires you to get into a cardboard box and never ever leave. Notice how Apple are spoonfeeding everyone whatever they want? And the consumer is just opening wide and eating it up? Yes, that’s you, you fucking idiot. Now uncross your legs, get your left arm off of your face and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

Do I hate andy warhol? No, he was original and creative. Do I hate you? yes, you’re a conformist retard.

• Currently eating/drinking: “Crispy Chips”
  

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Also, we might be playing some shows in the near (but not so near) future, possibly something big (:o!) or maybe something not so big. Whatever it is, we’ll post some videos or whatever. Thanks to everyone who’s showing their support even if it’s just by become a fan on the facebook page.

We’ve been working hard on some songs, thanks to my vocalist for the amazing lyrics, you never fail to impress! News on these new songs will be on the facebook page whenever they’re ready.

The facebook page is here:  Man, the machine! –  for anyone who might be interested (Thank you, if you are). I’m so excited for everything that’s going on with this band, I truly think we’re going in a good path. I’m defiantly having fun with it all.

Oh well, it’s 7:35 am now, perhaps I should go off to bed. Later.

• Currently eating/drinking: My own stomach ):

I sit down at the table and right as I’m digging my fork into some salad, she says “Your dad gets here on Tuesday”. I instantly lost my appetite and left the table.

Yeah, you all probably know how much I hate my dad. So I spent the rest of the day doing… pretty much nothing. So then I decide to go to bed and I had the weirdest dream. It went something like…

Me and my dad got into some argument. I can’t even remember what it even was, but there was yelling and whatnot, and my mum comes in and she’s yelling at him, and everything. So somehow we get him into this bathroom thing we’ve got outside of the house, and I’m so angry, I start nailing the door shut. So my mum sees this and she seems to be lost in her anger, so she takes it as a good idea. She starts getting lots of the wood we had stored in the shed and hammering it onto the door. As this is happening, my dad is squealing inside, trying to get the nails out, presumably banging his hands against the rusty nails from the inside, as he pleads for his life. Then, my mum gets a bag of cement, she says “Read the mixing instruction on the back” as she goes inside to get something to mix it with.

There’s blood coming out from underneath the door, there’s shouting, and crying. It sounds sort of like a saw movie. But while ALL of this was happening. There’s this AMAZING song playing in the background (I don’t even know how or why). A song I had never heard before. The song finishes [We haven't even put the cement in! ] and I wake up.

It’s now 5:42am, and I can’t figure out how the song went. The lyrics are gone, I can’t even remember any of them at all. But a little bit of the guitar still remains in my mind, waiting perhaps, to be written out into what might be 1/10th of the song that was in my dream.

My old drummer from my old band (probably one of my best friends) left for Germany (He just said “Update your blog, dude” so that’s one of the reasons I’m doing this). There was a farewell party going on, I went but… well that leads me to my second point.

My girlfriend and I broke up. Yep, it happened at the party, not even sure why. Oh well, things happen for a reason, I suppose?

On a much brighter note, my old bassist (Good friend of mine) invited me into his new band. He says the project will be partly in Spanish and partly in English (When we start writing that is). But for now, we’ll be playing some shows doing “LostProphet” cover songs. (I haven’t really heard much of that band, but it’s starting to grow on me). So, back to the stage with me! (yay!). By the way, I’m doing backing vocals and rhythm guitar this time.

What else? Ah yes! Uni started last month! Well, technically it didn’t… it was just the “Pre-Uni” class, which was pretty much 4 years of maths crammed into 5 hour daily classes for a month. Needless to say, I most likely failed it. I’m yet to go down there and see my scores. Even if I did fail, by the way, I still get into uni, but I can’t do the calculus class, or the economics class (or something). This is all due to my high score on the entrance exam (Hell yes). It was really easy, but I can’t help but be proud of myself for scoring higher than everyone else I asked. Uni (The real thing) starts tomorrow with “Computers I” (yes it’s actually called that), which apparently is an intensive excel class and also “Business Management I” which is… well pretty much what it says on the tin, I suppose.

Not sure how I’m going to do any of this, as of right now, I’ve got some kind of cold, or flu. For some reason, whenever this happens I start getting weird hallucinations, and start thinking weird conversations I’m having with myself in my room are real. Weird stuff.

Anyway I’ll leave you with this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgOuoXzbXWc — It’s the first studio recording video of “Endrive” ’s upcoming album “Atonement and Wrath”. They’re a pretty good band from Finland, their drummer is a friend of mine (he actually reads this blog from time to time! [hi!]).

Okay then, take care everyone, and get back to what you were supposed to be doing, be it studying, composing, scripting, programming, going out with someone, etc. Have fun!

• Currently eating/drinking: LOTS OF WATER!!

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Now playing: Escape The Fate - Situations — Dying Is Your Latest Fashion
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A new three-song track pack from The Fall of Troy is now available for download on the Guitar Hero 5 and Band Hero games. The pack features three songs from the new album, In The Unlikely Event: “Panic Attack,” “A Classic Case of Transference” and “Single.”

Damn. They actually did make it onto guitar hero AND band hero. Not only that, but it’s THREE songs, not one, not two, but THREE.

I was willing to accept the fact that the songs sounded more pop than post-hardcore, but damn.

Oh well, congrats the fall of troy, but whatever you do, you won’t ever make EVERYONE happy.

• Currently eating/drinking: Chicken cordon bleu leftovers, Mini snickers, Coke.

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The doctor gave me a removable cast (heh, removable, as if I’m actually going to put it on). So now my skin is peeling and I can see my original skin tone from when I was a baby and not so brown skinned :3

Anyway, off to bed, here are some nice pics for you to enjoy in any way you please.

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  Now playing: The Fall Of Troy - Nobody’s Perfect — In The Unlikely Event
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Apparently I could either undergo a rather costly operation involving screws and a metal plate getting stuck to my bone. Or I could have him yank on my bone and put it back in place there and then.. Which had two sub-options, one being to use the crappy local anaesthetic injection he had at hand or call an anaesthesiologist and get him to do a better job at making it not hurt.

I decided to go with b(a) and do it there and then, before my courage streak went away. He quickly took me into another room and stuck a needle in my hand. This was no small needle going into my hand a tiny bit. It went right into my hand leaving less then 1cm on the outside, making him reach down under my hand to see if it was near the other side. I really thought it was going right through, but then he jogged it a little bit and told me to hold still… it hit the first nerve. It made me jump a bit, with an electric shock sensation in my arm. He then pulled out a little bit and pointed it into another direction, another shock! He then pulled it out and put it into the side of my hand, one final small shock and he put it away. It took quite a while to do this and it was slightly painful, but I knew the worst was yet to come. After some 5 minutes of talking, he asks “Do you feel your hand?” I move it around a bit, Yes I did feel it. We carried on talking, about 8 minutes later he goes “All right then” as he adjusts his gloves. I quickly check my hand, sure it felt a bit numb, but not nearly as much as I hoped. It was as if I had slept on it for 10 minutes, I could feel it but it was tingly.

Next thing I know, he’s digging his hand deep into my palm. “This isn’t so bad” I think to myself. As if to prove me wrong, he instantly grabs my little finger and gives it a yank hard enough to keep me up at night for the next couple of days. After about 20 minutes of pulling, tugging, yanking and “repositioning”, he concludes it’s all he can do and starts to apply the plaster material, commonly known as cast. After that, I went home to receive the traditional “I’ve been there before, but mine was worse” by my dad and some scribbles from a friend.

In conclusion, my fear of fractures was proven to be stupid, as it didn’t hurt nearly as much as I expected it to when done, yet the aftermath of it was the part that hurt most.

My PC was also screwed up (Yeah great timing). Windows kinda fucked its self up the anus (as it always does) so I reinstalled. I then discovered my PSU fan wasn’t working, so I cleaned and oiled it. Everything seems to be fine now.

Also, adult educational school just finished so I can say bye to it forever (Uni here I come). Need to pass a few tests to get into the “UPB” uni, which is apparently the best one over here at the moment (pretty expensive though). Wish me luck!

• Currently eating/drinking: Cheese crackers, Nachos, Pepsi in a dirty glass :\

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Now playing: Eyes Set To Kill - Darling — Reach
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So, this morning I went out and got myself a chair, if any of you remember my OLD blog that only had two posts on it from about 2 years ago or more, I had a chair that cost me, well, not much, but it got destroyed fast anyway (heh, figures). I decided to go huge and get one of those nice rotatory office desk chairs, 70 bucks, which isn’t bad IMO. It looks really nice in my room I think, eventhough my room is tiny, it still fits somehow.

I also spent a lot of time playing around with my desktop on my PC to get some stuff on it that’ll help me be even more lazy and not have to do anything all day but stare at it. Infact, if there were a little photoshop tool in the corner, with a brush size and colour options, I’d probably not need to do much else with my PC than sit at the desktop. Anyway, as to not bore you further, here are some nice pictures of my room and a couple of screenshots of my desktop.

My room, Small but comfy.

My current desktop (click for bigger pics).

• Currently eating/drinking: Chicken leftovers and coke.

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Now playing: The Devil Wears Prada - Hey John, What’s Your Name Again? — Plagues
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The Fall of Troy’s “In the unlikely event” has the amazing guitar riffs that I was expecting, the creative genius of Thomas Erak, and the new screams of the amazing Frank Ene, that makes the fall of troy unique not only in their genre, but in the whole music world. As a friend said recently “I feel only listening to this makes me a better guitarist”. This album lacks the cheesiness of some of the Doppelgänger songs (Don’t get me wrong, I love them all) and incorporates a lot of pop type choruses, which make it easier to listen to without everyone looking at you as if you’re a weirdo listening to experimental things they wouldn’t understand.

Overall, I miss a lot of their doppelgänger sounds and songs, but this is also an amazing album. I just hope it doesn’t find its way onto guitar hero. :P  -  9/10

blessthefall has a new album called “Witness”, it’s their first album with their new vocalist Beau Bokan, who is replacing Craig Mabbit doing clean vocals. I honestly miss the awesomeness of Craig, I loved that guy and he has inspired me creatively with many things that I’ve done. Beau is also an amazing vocalist with his clean vocals and he can hit some pretty high notes. For now, Jared (bassist) is doing all the screaming. Anyway, the album is really good, but it lacks many things I really enjoyed about their last album “His last walk” although there are many songs that I didn’t really enjoy as much as others on that album. Songs like “Guys like you make us look bad” and “Rise up” never seem to get old for me, I really enjoy listening to them, even on a daily basis. I feel this album lacks more Drop D / Double bass combination, and Scream/clean vocal combination too. But it also has a catchier feel to it, which their last album didn’t seem to have.

Overall, this album is really different, this band has lost some good things, but gained some really good things too. If I could get them to go back in time and have them as they were before, I think I’d probably prefer it that way, but bands change, music changes, and this is probably a good thing for them and for the fans. I hope this band keeps going and does new and better things as time goes by. I really enjoy listening to this album and I think it’s something new for me, which is good. 8/10

I’d really recommend you pick any of these two albums up if you get the chance, they’re both amazing bands and I love listening to their music.

• Currently eating/drinking: Black jacks and coke.
  

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Now playing: The Fall Of Troy - A Classic Case Of Transference — In The Unlikely Event
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My dad, is an idiot, in fact, my family, my life is made out of idiocy and ignorance. I feel somehow I have to conform to the norms of everything around me, and I feel I’m drained of all will to fight and lash out, there’s nobody beside me who thinks equally, or who at least is willing to help, everyone wants me to shut the fuck up and become a little ball  of emotional stress. Guess what, that’s probably why I’ve got panic attacks, everything has to go somewhere. You know what I did before panic attacks? I’d get pissed off and fight against it, I’d do whatever I was doing even more, because I knew it was right, I knew what I was doing was the most rational and most correct decision or option I had. I might not have lashed out and bashed everyone around me, or argued to no end. I would just do something I would be really proud of, something that for me was amazing, and that something was fueled by rage, it was fueled by inner passion to defend what I knew was right, what I knew made me what I was.

Eventhough the there was a power outage just now, and I’m even more pissed off, I’m going to continue going (thank you wordpress draft saving). My father is a complete idiot. He apparently grew up in a society where everyone was to be as manly as possible and has to prove their manliness. I know people that are all “It hurts more when your dad tells you he’s disappointed”. Fuck that, it doesn’t. I’d prefer him to tell me he doesn’t consider me his son anymore, you know what? I would even enjoy that. I’ve gotten to the point where I really don’t care if he’s disappointed, full of rage, actually, I don’t even give a shit if he’s proud of me, his pride, feelings, emotions mean SHIT to me, fuck you dad, I fucking hate you.

So, it’s my mothers birthday today, and he wants to pick a fight about how gay people are not normal (Fuck you, you homophobic asshole), so then I discuss in a calm manner that homosexuality exists in nature, it’s normal. Yes, humans continue to exist because of people having sex and having babies. But homosexuality is not to be frowned upon. Infact, if you’re doing so, it shows everyone how much of an ignorant fuck you are. Unless, ofcourse, you’ve been raped by a homosexual, or had some very bad experiences with them, to the point of you having to stereotype them all into a mass of hatred. Anyway, as usual he acts like a child, and instead of getting his point across, he starts laughing like the fucking idiot he is, and pretends my point is invalid and walks away. (You ruined my birthday in the same manner anyway)

You know what dad? I will never, EVER be a muscular tool that needs sex more than food. I will never be a construction worker, truck driver, or any of those ridiculous jobs you constantly suggest I take. I will never travel the world and do everything YOU wanted to do but never did. Fuck you, I will never be your perfect son, I will never be everything you wanted eventhough you say “I don’t want that” just because my mum is there. I’ll be a better father than you ever were, and when I pay for my kids’ college, I’ll actually do it for them, for them to be something when they grow up, not because my wife wants me to and I feel the obligation to conform to a rule that isn’t actually there, when I actually want to use the money for something else.

I’m tired of being a pulp of weakness and not fighting for what I believe in, I’m tired of holding back and not saying what I think, I’m tired of being a piece of shit in everyone’s eyes. You know what? look at me however you want to, I will continue to be what I am and always was, I will be what I know is correct, and what I take pride in, and you will learn to like it.

By the way, thanks a lot to my girlfriend, I know some of the past has been rocky between us, but you’re always here to support me emotionally, you’re always here to calm me down and to help me out. Thanks a lot, I really really love you. <3

And to everyone else who thinks they’re better at being human because they are more normal, fuck you, you’re living life on a line. Stop conforming to what society gives you, stop listening to what people tell you to listen to, stop believing everything people tell you. Be yourself, find what’s good for you, find what works with YOU.

• Currently eating/drinking: Bile for breakfast.
  

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